Dependency is something that not every one thinks they need. But in today’s world, as a Christian, your dependency on God is very much needed. I don’t think I could survive being independent without Jesus in my life.
Even though I feel overwhelmed by a lot right now, I talked with God tonight. I asked God to forgive me for not continuing to trust Him in all things, to know that He will make a way for everything to work out, that I shouldn’t worry or try to handle it in my own way. That God is right there, making me realize how much depending upon Him is needed in our lives. I have struggled a lot lately with how I have been feeling. Feeling like a failure, feeling alone, feeling unsecured, feeling like nothing is worth it, feeling like I am going to lose out, feeling like nothing is going to make it happen, feeling as if my prayers aren’t being heard and that I’m being pushed to the side, feeling as if that’s no way things are going to work out the way I was hoping and that I am feeling as if it’s time to just not try anymore…lots of feeling going through me. But I have to realize (and now I do) that I have gotten this far with God always making a way, why wouldn’t He make another way for me?
God says in His Word that “He will never leave us, nor forsake us”. God is always faithful to His Word and what He says, no matter how little our faith seems to be or even more so, when our pride takes over and we try to do and figure things out on our own. Why waste our time, when God has everything under control as long as we just allow Him to lead us, guide us and take the wheel (and that doesn’t mean become a passenger driver either)?
Remember that God has numbered our days before we were ever born, that He has set a plan in place for us before we were even formed in the womb, that He has written down every day of our lives with what will come and how we will handle the situation. It’s just the matter of relying on our Jesus to take us through it. I was listening to K-Love and heard someone talking about how sometimes it just takes us feeling like an utter failure, it takes us feeling like we just cannot do it anymore in order for God to really step in and take His rightful place. I finally had come to that point and that’s when I realized that I have to become so broken before God before He can do anything because that’s when every piece of me from my spirit to my flesh is chaos and God has to put it back together – He knows where everything needs to be in my life. Once He does…I am stronger, braver and more confident than before.
So to be dependent upon God is the best decision you could ever make for yourself and for the lives of those around you. I know, it’s easier said than done, but once you do it…you cannot go back to doing it on your own! Remember that…the next time you feel like your world is coming down with a crash, that God is there ready and willing to pick you back up, dust you off and walk you through it.
