In front of the mirror she’s standing there, trying to figure out what’s staring back at her.
As she puts on the mask of confidence and the smile just for show, she’s crying inside…asking God “why”?
People pass her by, but they don’t see her.
They say “hi” and she responds with a facade to cover up the broken pieces that seem to define her.
She wonders to herself, “When will I feel real again”?
She longs to know what it feels like to be at peace and to know the unconditional love that she’s been missing for so long.
She wants to run, but there’s something holding her back, something is clinging tightly to her.
She lays awake in bed with her mind racing in circles. Just trying to figure out what’s next in her life and where she needs to go, with tears streaming down her face, she closes her eyes as she begins to pray:
God, I want to be swept away by You.
All I long for is to be alive in You.
I’m tired of feeling this way.
All I see is the broken pieces of me.
I’m searching for something more than how I’ve been defined.
Although I see the scars and stains, I know You will make me without spot or blemish.
The pain is hard to bear, the pressure is more than I can handle, but without that I can’t be like You.
I’m seeking You.
I’m waiting on You.
Every time I fall, I realize the cost of it all.
I just want the real me to be seen.
Even though this journey has been rough and I’m growing weak, for you God…
I’ll keep pressing on.
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